Monday, September 22, 2008

Week 21 - Still down 13 pounds

Week 21 has shown no change. I do feel that I have lost inches but no change in weight this week. Not good....not bad....not discouraging. Hopefully less next week!

Monday, September 15, 2008

Week 20 and Moving in the Right Direction!

Today I weighed in and was very pleased. I noticed that I have been eating less and leaving more on my plate this week. My exercise only consisted of one day walking as my walking partner has been sick but all in all I did well.

Drum roll please...........I have FINALLY surpassed the original 10 lbs I had lost since starting this 20 weeks ago and then falling off the wagon and putting some back on.

This week I am down 3.5 pounds for a total of 12.5 lost!

Monday, September 8, 2008

Week 19...missed .......Week 18 - I'm a Loser!


Week 18 I did not get time to report in. I stayed the same that week.

Week 19 - I am down 2 pound making it 9.5 pounds lost so far. .5 pounds away from being the lowest I've been since starting this mission. .5 is promissing as I had fallen off the wagon for a while but lately it seems to be easier to get my head back in the game and being that close now will give me a goal to break.

Losing weight is a mental game. My head has to be in it in order to lose. I also know that the only way I can lose is through a lifestyle change such as Weight Watchers and not through one fad diet after another. I have to be able to eat whatever I want but know my limits and control portions.

My goal for this week is to start exercising again. I have not done any exercising in a while and today my boss and I are going to start to walk again after work. We have had one excuse after the other.....heat....rain, etc. I miss it and I noticed that when I was walking, it was much easier to bend, get on the floor with my grandson, etc. so I have to do it. I also started writing down what I eat so hopefully I can make a full week of writing. I've been trying to do it over the past several weeks but don't last more than 2 or 3 days.

I also continue to love my new drink container and this has probably helped me to lose weight this week as I always carry it with me and it stays cold. Here's a picture. It is marked with ounces and milliliters, has a pop up straw, doesn't leak and has a convenient metal clip to clip to my purse or whatever.

Well...until next week!

Monday, August 25, 2008

Week 17 - August 25, 2008

O.K...I am posting even though I am not happy. Good things happened and bad. I went to Tampa this weekend to go wedding dress shopping and I was not good. I ate on the run and quick. I gained one pound.

The good thing is that this week my water bottle broke and I got a new one that I love. On top of that, I found through a friend, Walmart's brand of Crystal Light in pink lemonade flavor that I love so I have been drinking more at least.

I also brought my clothes to work so that I could go walking if the weather holds up. Hopefully so...

I'm looking to better things next week.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

WEEK 16 - SOMEONE CALLED ME ON THE CARPET! THANKS!

This is week 16 and I am very late posting. Someone finally called me on the carpet about it and I thank Gina because I needed to be checked up on!

I did lose 1/2 a pound this week. I think it was because my physical activity had increased due to a project I was doing on a friend's house...painting...taking off wallpaper...sweating! It helped. Otherwise...I have been a little more conscious of my food intake but not really being good. My water is also a problem. I just can't seem to drink all my water.....any suggestions would help.

Anyway....down 8.5 now so it is better than nothing. Traveling to Tampa this weekend to go wedding dress shopping with my daughter. Remember...I have GOT to lose weight by her wedding in March!

Next week!

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Week 16 - Monday - August 11, 2008

Where have I been? I've been in the weight loss doghouse!!
For the past several weeks I have been lost, fallen off the wagon, fallen off the scale and not holding myself accountable for anything and everything. On top of that....once again....no one else has held me accountable or asked where I have been. Please....I will not get mad......ask me?????
Why? I just don't know why or how I fell off the weight loss wagon.
What brought me back to watching my weight and my blog again? I realize that I cannot be complacent or I will get nowhere. I am feeling bloated again and detest that feeling.
The good news: I have not gained any weight since my last blog entry.
The bad news: I am still down only 8 pounds from when I started 16 weeks ago. I know...I know....it is not bad but it could have been much better if I had concentrated on what was important.
What has changed: I am once again eating healthy.
Am I back to exercising: No...as of this moment I have not but I do plan to get back to walking. The hot weather had just defeated me prior to this. The humidity has been horrendous.
What is expected: Please look for my update for Week 17..................

Monday, July 21, 2008

Short Term Goal and Long Term

This week I was given another reason to lose weight. My daughter, Jessie, became engaged. There will be a wedding on March 20th, 2009 if all goes as planned. I guess we could call this a short term goal and a long term one as it is a way off but actually only a short way from how long it is going to take me to reach a decent weight.

O.K...March 20th....where do I want to be? That is 8 months away.

I could play it safe and say that I would like to lose between 25 to 35 pounds by that time. I know I can do it. Put it this way....my short term goal is to fit in a dress at least two sizes smaller than my daughter's wedding in May 2006 which was a size 24 and I probably wouldn't fit in it today. Wow....I'm being open today but I am desperate.

I'm off to write down what I had for breakfast!

WEEK 13 - WHERE HAVE I BEEN - NO ONE ASKED

Week 13 is here and not one person has asked where I have been during week 12. Well...I wish you would have asked as I have been on a continual downward spiral into weight loss hell! I have been totally negligent and out of control. I have not been walking but have been eating. Why? Lazy......thinking...oh I'll do it tomorrow.....I can give you every excuse in the book but none of them are worth a nickel.



As a result, I have gained 1/2 pound which is not much over two weeks but that puts me up 2.5 pounds from my lowest but down 8 pounds from when I started 13 weeks ago. Still ahead but could have been better.

Please..in the future......don't think I will be upset if you ask me why I haven't posted. I NEED you to ask me. This is why I went public with this battle.

Monday, July 7, 2008

WEEK 11 - STATUS QUO - GET WITH IT DORIS

This week I again remained the same although I do not know how I pulled that one off. I have not walked at all due to either rain, mosquitos or my boss being out of town and not being here to nag me. He is on his way back today and we have committed to walking today and getting back on track for me.

No...I have not written down either so I'm going right now to begin for today.

How easy one can get off track and let things fall to the wayside.

I MUST RECOMMIT!

Monday, June 30, 2008

Week 10 - Status Quo

Week ten and all is the same. I have not lost or gained and I have not been exercising. For some unknown reason I am physically exhausted and my daughter keeps nagging me to go to the doctor and see if my mono has come back. I do feel like I did when I had the mono and I was told that once you have it, it does not go away and can come back. I'll see how it goes this week and then decide.

Monday, June 23, 2008

Week 9 - Just call me Yo Yo!

Week 9 - up two pounds. Why

1. It has rained all week and I did not walk but once this week.
2. I did not write down anything this week.
3. I was sick with a stomach bug all weekend (thank goodness or I would have been up more).

My goal this week is to diary everything I eat and to walk no matter what.

Monday, June 16, 2008

Week 8 - Up Up and Away...

I must say that it is getting easier to stick to my new lifestyle. Notice I did not say that dreaded four letter word...."diet". I don't like that word as most of it consists of the term "die". The way I look at it now is that I am not on a diet but rather I have made a lifestyle change. That isn't to say I have not eaten fattening things. One day this week I did treat myself and I had pasta but I have learned that one day does not destroy me like before. If I ate something I shouldn't have in the past, I would say...oh well screwed up and I would continue to eat without thinking of what I put in my mouth because after all, I already screwed up. That's where....I'll start my diet next week...would take over only the weeks would mount up and I would never start.

This week I did not walk as much as I would have preferred to because of weather and I also did not do water aerobics on Saturday morning as I wasn't feeling great but I still managed to lose.............1.5 pounds....which puts me past what I had lost since I started and backslid for 3 pounds.

My total weight loss to date on week 7 is 10.5 pounds. Not an earth shattering number for 8 weeks but it is 10.5 pound not gained!

Thanks again to those of you who are encouraging me....especially my Scale Stomper buddies....(I'll explain them later).

Thursday, June 12, 2008

A New and Useful Toy




Now that I have started my journey out of obesity, I have been through a series of pedometers and none of them have proved to be accurate or last for a long period of time. I researched the web after a friend told me about the model that her dietician recommended and I ended up ordering an Omron HJ 720ITC from Amazon.com for $29.95 with free shipping. About.com gave the following review:

The Omron HJ-720ITC Pocket Pedometer is a full-featured pedometer (steps, distance, calories) that also allows you to upload it all to enjoy graphs and charts of steps, aerobic steps, distance, calories and fat burned. The pedometer is of an advanced design that tolerates more tilt than many. It is also absolutely silent and very accurate.

I like the fact that it tracks your walking automatically. If you walk for over ten minutes at a brisk pace, it calculates it as aerobic minutes and separates it from just every day steps. With the computer interface, I upload and it will continue to keep track of your walking yearly and show the same in graphs. You can set goals and let you know if you met them.

The main thing is this is not a pedometer you can shake and get a false reading. You can also wear it in your pocket and don't have to clip it on your waist if you don't wish to. It is extremely accurate and I, being a visual person, find the graphs as an incentive to push myself further.

If you are looking for a pedometer, this one is worth the money.

Monday, June 9, 2008

Week 7 - Gray Skies are Going to Clear Up!

This week I have really buckled down as I realized I was heading in the wrong direction. I lost a total of 2 pounds this week. This makes 9 pounds total since I started so I need just one more pound to get to my lowest since this began. My short term goal is to beat that number by next week.

I have continued to walk more....even though it is so hot I think I will melt! I also continue with my water aerobics on Saturday's at 7 a.m. which is a big sacrifice as that is the only day I can sleep. Karen and I have decided that after ten weeks of water aerobics, we will reward ourselves and have a masseuse come to the house and give us full body massages.....works for me.

Well...off to another dedicated week of being a Loser! Again...thank you all for your support as I am still hearing comments about my being so forthcoming and blogging about my obesity. It helps to hear that you are supporting me.

Monday, June 2, 2008

Week Six - Not where I want to be...

Week six and I have been on a downward spiral. I gained another (1) pound making my loss only 7 at this point. It is disappointing however, I have no one to blame but myself. I have done nothing but eat incorrectly and have not been exercising as diligently as I should. I let stress get the best of me and that caused me to eat. The good is as follows:
  • I realize what I am doing
  • I still have lost inches with the amounts of exercising I am doing
  • I am determined to turn things around this week!
Looking for a better number next Monday and I can assure you that it will be there.

Monday, May 26, 2008

Week Five - Down Hill Slide

Well..I knew I was not going to be a loser this week. I ended up gaining two (2) pounds but am right back to working on losing. Why did I gain this week? Simple...here are my reasons as I see it:

  • I ate out a lot as we had company
  • I was not careful when I ate out
  • I did not write down what I ate and calculate points this week. (biggest reason)
  • Less exercise

This morning my daughter Debi, husband Eddy, grandson Alex and friends Barbara and Jim and me went for a bike ride near the Deering Estate off of Old Cutler Road. It was good. I need to get back with it this week and will definitley do so.

Monday, May 19, 2008

Week 4 - 1st Short Term Goal

Today's weigh in brought good news. I only lost 1/2 a pound but that takes me to my first short term goal which was to lose 10 pounds by the time my neice and her family came to visit. I have now met that goal and Colette is her visiting now.

The other good news is that I continue to walk up to 4 miles 5 times a week and I actually look forward to doing it. If my boss walks with me, we talk about a lot of things and actually...we decided our walks are good brain exercises as we will be talking and trying to think of someones name because neither one of us remember much. Usually....one of us will come up with a first name and the other a last name. It's hysterical. If my boss doesn't walk with me, I put my IPOD on, my ear phones in and walk to music.

Now I have to think as to what I want for my next short term goal......

I'll post later this week.............

Monday, May 12, 2008

Week Three - Close to first short term goal deadline

This week was a busy one. For Mother's Day, my husband and I drove to Tampa on Friday to spend time with our daughter, Jessie, who just moved back to Tampa from Philly. We also met her boyfriend, Jackson, who turns out to be a very nice guy but I would expect nothing less as the people from church set them up together.

Although I went on a trip and we ate out all meals, I surprised myself with my determination! On Saturday morning, I got up and went to an hour long aerobics class with Jessie at LA Fitness.

On Sunday morning, Mother's Day, I got up and went to the gym at the hotel. They had two treadmills, a bicycle and a step machine. When I looked in, there was a skinny blond and two guys in there...jock types...and I turned around and headed back to the room. I was too fat and too embarassed to go in there with them but then.....for some reason.....I told myself that I DESERVE to be in there just like them and I turned around and marched in! Well...the one treadmill wouldn't work but the guy told me he'd be done in 3 minutes. Do I leave or stay? I decided to stay and in doing so, I walked my 3 miles on the treadmill in a little less than one hour. The one guy who was still there when I finished told me he couldn't believe that I walked that far and that fast. It felt good to start my Mother's Day out that way.

I will say my only downfall this past weekend were onion rings at Smokey Bones. Yes....I had some...more than I should have but I got right back on track!

RESULTS..................................I LOST 3.5 POUNDS THIS WEEK!
TOTAL......................................9.5 POUNDS LOST
REMAINING TO SHORT TERM GOAL...................1/2 POUND BY NEXT SATURDAY WHEN
MY NIECE COMES TO VISIT...........I CAN DO THIS!!!

Monday, May 5, 2008

Second Week Weigh In

Just a short note to add in today's weigh in. This is the second week I have been on this journey and it is a little disappointing however, I am not discouraged.

This week I GAINED 1/2 of a pound.

I was kind of shocked as I have exercised 6 out of 7 days which included walking at the very least....2 miles.

As I think about it, I know that they say when you execise you gain muscle, etc. and I don't know if that is it or the fact that I probably am not eating enough...yes...that's right.... I am following the Weight Watcher plan and I believe there was only one day where I used up all my points. I know if you don't eat enough, your body thinks you are starving it and it slows down. Other than that, the other thing is I have not drank enough water.

Bottom line......this week I will work on the following:

1. Continuing to exercise faithfully
2. Eating all my points
3. Drinking more water.

I do hope to have more to report next week.

On the good side.................I do feel like I am losing inches. I do not feel like my upper body is like a round ball.

Saturday, May 3, 2008

It's Saturday!!

Wow...the second week is almost at an end. Today, my friend Karen had a water aerobics class for me at her house at 7 a.m. I was really surprised that I could do everything she asked me to do. We exercised for one hour in the pool and my arms, legs and abdomen felt it. We then had a nice light breakfast on the patio.

I came home and took care of all my plants, cut grass on the lawn mower, cleaned out one freezer and am now defrosting the other. I am going to do laundry and sew for the rest of the day.

I have walked every day this week with the exception of yesterday. I don't seem to be losing any weight but I do not feel as bloated as I have in the past. I feel like I have a lot more energy.

Weigh in is on Monday but even if I don't lose any weight, I know I am changing my lifestyle for the better and am actually starting to look forward to exercising.

A friend just e-mailed me to tell me that I inspired his wife to join a gym and start exercising. Me......me? I inspired someone?

This journey from obesity is really helping me to see that I AM a pretty nice person. For years, I guess my obesity stood in the way of my self worth and I never truly took a good look at myself. What is nice is that other people are helping me to see that....I am worth it! I am worth the time of day! I am worth giving myself time. I don't have to be everything to everyone else before taking care of myself.

Just another baby step on the path from obesity.

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

THE JOURNEY THIS WEEK


So far my journey is going well. I am still hearing from many regarding my public admission of obesity and actually...I'm still shocked that so many have responded so positively. I received a beautiful text message from my son's girlfriend and messages from people I never thought would take the time to respond and that really touched me.

I had a proud moment yesterday. I left work and went home saying I would walk at home as my boss wasn't walking today due to a commitment and it looked like rain. I got home, sat down on the couch and told myself....forget it...I walked yesterday...I'll wait until tomorrow.

Well....my innerself decided I should get my fat rump off the couch and go walk so I went to our back garage to the treadmill and proceeded to start walking. At first I said to myself that I would only do 1/2 of of three miles but as it ended up, I persevered and walked over three miles in 60 minutes at a very sturdy pace. As I finished, I realized that my shirt was soaking wet! That is a first for me!!!

I felt proud and good about myself for not listening to my lazy side.

Monday, April 28, 2008

WEEK ONE WEIGH IN

Today is one week since I weighed myself and began my journey trying to escape obesity. I have kept on task and walking up to 3 miles. Yesterday I actually biked for the first time in ages. Of course, my hiney hurts from the seat but hopefully that will get better.

I attended my niece's First Communion after which a breakfast was held. I passed up the pancakes, waffles and arepas (a Colombian dish for my gringo friends) and ate 1/2 a bagel with fat free cream cheese, fruit, one mini quiche (usually I have about 10) and my one item to splurge on.....a piece of morsilla (sp?) which is a Colombian blood sausage. Of course...this meal was breakfast and lunch so I think I did well.

I did have 2 glasses of Schnebly's mango wine during the week but I counted my points for them.

WHAT DID THE SCALE SAY THIS MORNING??????????????????????????????

IT SAID......GOOD MORNING SISSY (DORIS)...YOU ARE ON YOUR WAY AS YOU LOST.....

DRUMROLL HERE................



6.5 POUNDS

Saturday, April 26, 2008

Goal Number One


Announcing Goal Number One!

In any weight loss plan they say to set reasonable short term goals. I am ready to do so. Here it is....

My neice, Colette, husband Charlie, son Cade and my brother Robert are coming to visit on May 17th. My goal is to lose 10 to 15 pounds by the time they arrive.

Repercussions of my Revelation

When I had previously posted the story below on another blog, I was worried as to what type of response I would get. I had a feeling that some may chastise me for putting myself out there to be hurt if I failed. I am here to tell you that I was so wrong.

I am truly humbled by the response of family and friends to my plan to blog about my obesity. Several of you have posted on the story below on my other blog and many of you have e-mailed me privately. You have made me feel so loved and cared for. Each and every one of you encouraged me to start my journey and follow through.

One of my friends told his girlfriend about my story. Today she showed up at my office door offering to do a water aerobics class for me. I have always wanted to try this but the classes never fit my schedule. Next Saturday at 7 a.m., we will begin at her house. I held myself together until she left my office and then I went for a walk and cried. I am overwhelmed that someone would take time for me! Me! Someone is taking time for me! Why does that sound so strange to me?

On Monday I will weigh in and post as to my loss or gain. I feel that I have had a good week food wise. Here is my week so far:
  • I stayed within my point target and ate very healthy.
  • I did not starve myself at all.
  • I walked Monday for 2 miles
  • I walked Tuesday for 2.5 miles
  • Walked Thursday for 2.5 miles
  • Walked today for 3 miles

Comming Clean

Written on 4-22-08
Can I Commit?
How Strong am I?

Today I made a decision that was extremely hard for me. I am going public with my weight issue. It may end up to be the most embarassing thing in my life or my most inspirational. My hopes and prayers are that it will help me to be commited to taking time for myself. A woman is made by God and fine tuned to be caring and nuturing creatures. It is one of our biggest faults. I don't think God meant for us to put everyone before ourselves, but we have. I can remember thinking in August of 1992 as Hurricane Andrew raged around my family as we sat huddled in the hallway that I just couldn't protect my children or promise that they would be safe from the storm. I remember crying hysterically and praying for my daughter, Jessie who was in the Bahamas. I thought if we were getting this bad of a storm here, she surely could not survive the storm on a small island. I really didn't think about myself...my thoughts were for my children.
My husband has often said to me that I need to take time for myself. I can wait no longer. I want to be able to get on the floor and play with my Grandson, Alex. I want to see my daughter Jessie and son Danny marry and have children. I want to grow old with my husband.

Growing up in a small town in Pa., some of my earliest memories are of being teased by my older brothers. They called me "Fat Sissy." Sissy is the name that those near and dear to me have called me since I was born and I prefer it over Doris. Just not the "fat" part. During my youth, I was always the chubby kid. I love to sing as a teenager and I'll never forget a teacher who told me that "fat people can't sing." I was crushed as I loved music. Oh...I had many friends and dates due to the fact that I had, what I considered, a great personality in face of adversity.

Throughout my adult life, I have gone up and down with my weight. The only time I was near successful was when I was on different drugs from a doctor. The minute I went off of them, I gained back the weight and more. My weight has always been a source of failure for me and it truly does affect my feeling of self worth. I guess society has not helped with that feeling. People feel that fat people are lazy, sloppy and unworthy of love. Many people act like fat people don't have feelings. Well...I am here to tell you that we do. I cry often and my feelings do get hurt a lot!

During this past weekend I faced the scale and was not happy. This 53 year old woman is too close to somewhere I swore I would never be. Yes...I'm too embarassed to mention the number. Maybe someday. (Note...the picture above is from a fashion show at church this past Saturday where I was the emcee.)

Now...you have to understand that my husband is very fit and even plays raquetball three times a week. I, on the other hand, find it difficult to make time for exercising or taking time for myself. I do believe that I am a little afraid of exercise because I have suffered a broken leg that required surgery as well as a ruptured ACL ligament that I had to have a cadaver ligament implanted in my knee. I will say that even though I am fat...o.k...the word is obese and I admit I am...., the only medication I take is synthroid for an underactive thyroid....but I cannot blame my weight on that!

On Monday morning I went into the office and told my boss, who is also heavy and a good friend, that this was it. We both had to buckle down and it is easier when you have a friend to do it with. We committed to start walking and eating better.

My week so far has been pretty good. I attended a farewell party and also had an office luncheon and feel that I did well. I am more or less following the Weight Watchers plan. I have surprised myself by walking on Monday, Tuesday and today for a total of 2 to 2.5 miles a day. I feel good and yes...I have had some hunger. I still have not been able to drink a lot of water but I am working on it.

I am hoping to post here at least once a week to update you as to my progress. I will be truthful and honest about my feelings and my failures and successes. I hope you will support me with your prayers and emotional support because Lord knows...I need it. Feel free to post a comment below.

Until we meet again...............................